high fashion thinspo 2

We hear it all the time - superskinny models are going to be replaced by healthy looking girls and blah blah blah. Let's face it - it's a lie. Most of the clothes just look best on skinny women and designers know that. Yes, there have been some great campaings with healthier looking girls - but these need to have so much more charisma and confidence to rock the runways and photoshoots.

Several months ago I posted some pictures from the Fall 2010 fashion campaigns. I guess it's time for the Spring 2011 update. (Spoiler: Nothing has changed :).)

Stuart Weitzman


Isabel Marant

Proenza Schouler

Calvin Klein



Marc Jacobs

Miu Miu





Staying away from blogging is like staying away from home. One can kinda come and leave, but it still is that special place you're gonna carry in your heart.

I hope you are all well, girls. <3 I'm not giving up. I will never give up.


(still in search for the beauty)

Hey, girls.
It's been a month since my last post here. Things haven't really changed much, but the pain is less sharp now so I am able to come back and look around this place and community I love so much.

First of all - THANK YOU for the support you gave me through comments and e-mails.

Special thanks to Skeleton Strong for: "But also remember that even though this is "just a blog" and we all seem "just worried about what we weigh," we're actually real people too, and we care about you." <3

And now the important thing (some moralizing ahead):

I found out that no matter what one deals with in life, it's always easier to deal with it while one is thin & clean & beautiful.
Now this sounds like a super stupid sentence, because beauty seems to be nothing compared to love & death & God & stuff like that. But it's true. Not because the universe makes your life better when you are thin. Not because God loves you more when you can fit size 0. But because of yourself. When one doesn't have to fight the body, it's easier to fight through life. And for me, the only way how not to see my body as an enemy, is to make it better.
I´m not trying to lose all the fat for some material reason or for a boy who didn´t want me at high school. I'm doing this because it´s a need of my soul, literally.

This is what Yummy has in the header of her blog: Where does my heart belong.
I finally understand.

I've been through some painful things lately, and I would still sign this in my blood.
(I'm not really sure if this is a comeback. I just needed to write it down.)
I love you all, each of you is beautiful, girls.


update... I guess

Hi, guys.

OK, I haven't been eating. Nothing at all for several days now. But the reason for that isn't my wanarexia or whatever. I'm having some serious problems right now. And it makes me wonder about things. About this thing.

There has been a tragedy in our family. I almost can't see because I've been crying that much. There's lot of pain going through my body. And unfortunately, the whole thing is not over yet.

Someone has left us. If I weren't working on this blog for the last couple of days I could perhaps spend more time with him. Who knows, perhaps I could change something... I don't know.

Right now it seems like the most inappropiate thing to make any posts here. I'll try to come back, I promise. Maybe I'm gonna be thin without trying. Pain is a million times stronger than hunger.

Best wishes, lovelies :) (an attempt to smile).


high fashion thinspo

These are some details from the high fashion campaigns fall 2010/winter 2011. Can anybody see the advice "healthier looking models"? Because I don't. :)


Calvin Klein








Leon Max

Louis Vuitton

Marc Jacobs

Miu Miu







the thinness in art

Most people believe that all the art up until at least the French revolution showed women as very fleshy beings (yet usually beautiful). It's not that true. The sense of etherical beauty has been present in every century of human existence. And I just found a painter that was able to catch just that kind of beauty in his paintings. I think they are worth sharing.


tuesday 8/17

What a weird day! I had some work at night so I got to the bed at about 7AM. I felt really hungry and found out that I'm not going to fall asleep like that. So I went to the kitchen and made myself a cabbage (like a slaw). The whole meal was pretty weird but it met my taste perfectly - I needed something very sour and full of vitamins. I didn't have much of it (like one small bowl) and then ate nothing else during the day but the scale didn't move in any way. I guess when one choses the ABC, he/she has to know that the metabolism is going to slow down drastically and every piece of food is just too much.

Not a bad day after all :).

Thank you for you support, guys. You are amazing, xoxo.